Today I am acutely aware of how blessed my family is and how much we take for granted. Every time one of my children fusses about eating his green beans, or that he wants fish sticks instead of spaghetti for dinner, that this toy or that toy was destroyed by one of the others, or that some great injustice has occurred because the wrong cartoon is on TV I am convinced that we need more exposure to those in need. When we are giving and praying for others, when we are loving and living sacrificially, it seems there is far less to complain about in this world.
Today I am longing for my journal and intimate prayer with my God, something that was once a regular part of every day. My soul needs it. My mind needs it. My relationships need it.
Today, my Momma Lion is roaring, or at least growling. I watched as a neighborhood child picked on my Aidan yesterday, exhibiting nothing less than pure meanness. I watched as he naively defended himself, inciting more taunts, oblivious to the fact that he was the butt of a joke. It was a small thing, but I don’t like it, and want to put a stop to it.
Today I am warmly surrounded by the love of my Megan, with a beautiful purple scarf brought home for me from Morocco. So special and sacred is the gift and the friendship.
Today I am tired from staying up too late last night watching a movie with my Marc, then not sleeping well and waking up too early, on Daylight savings. Wouldn’t trade that time for anything, though.
Today I feel bombarded by a lingering war, tragedy circling the globe, gloomy weather outside, and various nagging annoyances and stresses in our lives. And yet something in the weather, my surroundings, or friends brings a lull of peace and confidence that everything really will be okay.
Today I miss my babies, their faces and their kisses, and deeply wish I had more time with Marc’s babies. Each one is so, so beautiful, with so much to share and dream.
Today I’m okay that the walls still aren’t painted, the carpet isn’t replaced and the refrigerator leaks. I’m truly thankful for a wonderful home.
Today, it’s a new day. And tomorrow will be too.
“And it might not be the prettiest thing that you’ll ever see, but it’s a new day. Awe baby it’s a new day…” - Robby Seay Band
Love you.
Posted by: Megan Schell | 03/15/2011 at 03:00 AM
love you too meggie. always!
Posted by: Missy Rose | 03/15/2011 at 08:25 AM